When I was growing up my mother [Afeni Shakur] was going through depression. Her brain was cut off at a certain point, when I needed it. Her fighting times were when Tupac [Shakur] was being developed, between his birth and 13. All this stuff happened between Assata Shakur being broken out [of jail]. My father [Mutulu Shakur] is in jail for breaking Assata Shakur out of prison. This happened when I was 5.
“I’m bipolar. I battle with depression and suicide on a daily.”
I’ve been hospitalized twice. After I left the hospital, I went through intensive therapy for three years, going to the therapist three times a week. I moved to Sausalito, California, where there was nothing but high class white people. They didn’t even know who Tupac was. I really needed to separate myself from the black community and it was almost like I was in refuge there. I was able to build my spirit back. When we moved back to Atlanta, where my family was, is when I was able to put all of my tools in play. So, just coming back home around black people, coming back to society and seeing the difference from how I was, before I went to the hospital, and how I am now and how I walk in my own faith and my own spirit. I’m not Afeni’s daughter, or Tupac’s sister, or Mutulu’s daughter, I’m my own being and I’m powerful.“Your opinion of me is none of my business.”
I deal with a lot of shame. Just growing up the way that I grew up, hiding from the FBI, living in poverty, just being dark-skinned with short hair. You live with a lot of shame. You build up a wall that tells you that you’re bad. So, that phrase, ‘Your opinion of me is none of my business,’ really has gotten me through a lot daily garbage.“My mother said that Tupac was her soul mate.”
I’ve always been the shadow in the corner. I’m actually the heart in my family. My mother is the backbone. ‘Pac is the catalyst. I’m the heart. I’m what keeps us together. My mom never taught me how to cook. She taught my brother how to cook, and I happened to be in the room when she did it. She never taught me about being a woman. She taught Jada [Pinkett]. She was telling Jada, when they were in high school, I just happen to be in the room listening to that.Pretend. You’ve seen “The Cosby Show.”
When my mom was using drugs I was in sixth grade. I went to school everyday. My mother wasn’t home. My brother wasn’t home for like months at a time. I still went to school everyday. So you can create the type of life that you want. You know a lot of men be like, ‘I don’t know what it is, and I can’t take care of my son. I never had a father.” Make pretend, you’ve seen “The Cosby Show.” I don’t need to beat myself up for what happened between my childhood to 18. Whatever happened to me, somebody should have been taking care of me, instead of me taking care of myself. I deserve to allow myself to believe in that, so I don’t have to beat myself for it. From 18 up, it’s my responsibility and I have the right and choice to decide to be what I want my life to be.“Tupac really worked to take care of his family.”
‘Pac died at 25, and before him my mom was on welfare and I was on welfare and my uncle, the only man in the family, worked four shifts, and our grandparents were sharecroppers. We just come from poverty. With that, I struggle with my clothing line [Madamveli]. I want to be able to take over that for him. I want [Tupac] to be able to retire. He’s been dead for 10 years and he’s still working.Her Testimony
I want to thank God that I’m here and that I don’t have the want or the need to want to kill myself. Everyday I used to wake up wanting to die and thinking that that’s an option. Today I know that that’s not an option for me. [SOURCE]
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I just have to say this was a very interesting post.
But…as far as that # 20 post. She need to keep the F**k QUIET. They are BROTHER and SISTER NO MATTER WHO THE DADDY IS PERIOD. I have not heard her say one bad thing about Tupac and if you are a TRUE PAC fan you would have made a more relevant comment DUMMY!!!
Assata Shakur is Tupac’s godmother.It seems like she’s got alot to overcome.
Much respect to the entire Shakur family who did so much to assist the struggles of black people including making the ultimate sacrifice….
I’m sorry to her Pac’s sister has struggled so much. It gives you insight into the kind of burdens Pac was struggling with as well. THere are many people who can relate to his sister’s life and what she’s been through so hopefully this post has helped them know they are not alone.
Thanks Angel!!
wow that’s crazy i used to have a pitcure that she was lucky and probably spoiled rotten.. but she’s been through some things.. and came out stronger.. she’s gained some respect from me for that.. and her comments about her life and brother…
afeni shakur needs to write a book about her life man.. she’s the real interesting shakur. her life, her kids, her men, her jailtime, her youth… just everything..
first of all i want to say to tracey don’t write shit if you ain’t got nothing nice to say it’s obvious that you need some serious help. second I want to say that i’m glad she is finaly starting to find peace after all that shit she’s been through it’s obviouse that she is a strong woan and god have a purpose for her, that’s why he didn’t let her kill herself. so i hope she continue to do good for herself. third who da hell compared the legandery Tupac with keisha can’t sing cole. i can’t stand her stank attitude self she ani’t got nothing on tupac.but i ain’t hating i’m glad she making something out of herself after her struggle but please don’t compare her to tupac. they have nothin in common.Damn ya’ll upset me now.
I can really feel what she feel like because of me having impathy. You have gotten over the hardest part and it should be smooth sailing from now on. About your brother retiring he is so deep in our hearts I don’t think he’ll ever be forgotten. And I pray to god jehovah that you continue to prosper. one luv!!!!!!!!!!!!
pac the cali G’s is the best rapper forever and ever and also he strugle for his right!!! I dnt give a shit for the other rapper but 2pac is the best and i hope he is still alive cuz he follows the style of Makavelin…….. u know……… anyway if i’mnt right ,he dead forever……….i say God bless the dead…….. I thanks for the getting me that i want in the world, that is listening and wathching 2pac Amaru Shakur………..
He is so fame still…….hahahaha………
fuck the world….
2pac is da best rapper in da world…… all eyes on him u bezzy’s
FUCK DA WORLD
Ok I suffer from skitzofrania and I know your brother my family knows your brother I have kids by your brother and I know where your brother is I also suffer from depression over him and over other stuff that happened I care alot about him especially my kids especially when they say hes dead and he’s not my couzin Tommy I hate to say his name or discuss this is his best friend I know cuz I got my mind and its powerful you take life how you want to treat it and god has his back because I started all of this maybe I didn’t because I wasent there me and Tupac go back living in chicago but all I got to say is free or god will talk to you later luv Marlene
damn i think tupac was a great part in My history. His music made me believe in what was true. I want to believe he’s still alive, in a way he is . In his music in which i listen to everyday. To Tupac’s Sister like your bro be sayin “keep ya head up” Dat saying always helps me. but yeah Be strong. Peace